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First Anniversary

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 12:24:03 GMT

Today is my first anniversary of being in Korea. I have not been back to the States in a year. I have not seen my family in a year. I guess I should be bothered more by this, but on the other hand I'm beginning to realize that my teetering between feeling run down and going completely crazy may be a result of this. My not really being upset about being away for so long is most likely my way of dealing with it. I am putting in my leave request tomorrow for September. I am scared to go home. I'm afraid that I've changed too much and that things back home will have change too much for me to recognize them.

Other things... I've tried to write about them, but I can't explain how I feel right at this moment. I guess the best way to describe it is I'm struggling to not believe that how you see me is how other people see me.

I can't deal with he said, she said, I said, I take it back shit anymore. I have to much to deal with right now on my own. If I take yours on also I won't be able to handle it. That's why I run away.

Who does this?

Tue, 23 May 2006 10:40:31 GMT

Who gets married to someone they knew for 2 weeks? Apparently he does. The first of them to get married.

Note to self....

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 00:37:37 GMT

Headbutting is always a bad idea.

Since my last entry...

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 05:45:15 GMT

I have...

Been to a keg party.

Did two keg stands in a row.

Found out an acquaintance is talking shit about me.

Been a bouncer at a change of command ceremony.

Saw my heinous ex.

Not cared.

Been happy.

Worked out some issues with friends.

Learned how to play spades.

Booty danced...quite a few times.

Broke my favorite bracelet booty dancing. (I don't know how either.)

Seen my NCOIC in a leopard print shirt.

Caught a nasty cough from my captain who keeps telling people I have the bird flu.

Been hit on.

Back

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 11:16:00 GMT

I'm back... I have been for a few days... I was bored the entire time and was hoping to catch up on my sleep this weekend, but that didn't happen. I got to hang out with Hernandez... He was here for the exercise and it was so nice to see him again. I've also run into a few of the New Hampshire people who were here for the last one. This weekend was interesting...mostly because I'm now seeing someone exclusively... I'll have to see how this goes.. I'm having a hard time trusting him...for some reasons and just because of my past experiences also. I've remained fairly...somewhat...detached...obviously not completely but enough that if things do not work out when he comes back that I won't be too suprised or too hurt. Prepare for the worst and hope for the best I guess. I'm getting another tattoo next weekend maybe... Possibly on the upper arm...for some reason that area scares me as being "too noticable" and yet I have tattoos on my wrists...hmm.

Gone

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 12:10:04 GMT

I'm leaving for the field soon. I'll be gone for ten days, so I probably won't be able to answer e-mails and such. Burt, a friend of mine from AIT, finally arrived here. We've been having fun. I introduced him to soju. Let's see...I'm looking forward to going home... Not necessarily to leaving Korea and going to Kansas, but I am looking forward to those three weeks in between when I can spend time with my dad and grandma and wander about my lovely city. AND I can talk to people in the States...and they'll be able to call me. Yes! I think it'll be weird to be back in the States. I'm assuming I'll have a bit of cultural shock and have to give myself time to readjust...

New things

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 08:11:24 GMT

I haven't posted a lot lately because I've had a lot going on. Between things at work and personal things I've been a little stressed. Right now I'll either be leaving here in June and going to Fort Riley, Kansas or I'll be staying here for another year. I hope I get to stay here because I do not enjoy the idea of living in the middle of nowhere in Kansas. If I do go to Fort Riley it looks very likely that I will be leaving in the fall sometime for a lovely vacation in the desert. I won't know for sure until I get to my unit, but again, it's likely. The Army doctors aren't giving my ankle time to heal, so one week after I severly sprained it I am wearing only an ace bandage and shoving it into a boot. Monday it is likely that I will have to try to run with the company. Ah well....so it goes.

Yikes

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 05:29:53 GMT

Last night I was walking down some stairs and talking on my cell phone when I missed the last step and landed on the side of my foot. I went to the ER today and it is apparently badly sprained, so now I have a splint and foot bootie and on Monday I need to go get crutches.

umm..

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 10:25:13 GMT

So apparently I punched....something Friday night... When I woke up Saturday morning my right knuckles were cut and bruised...bright red and swollen. My hand still hurts, but thankfully it seems to be getting better... I just wish I knew what I hit. That was definitely a crazy night... I also left a scar on Ace's face that I'm pretty sure will be there for the rest of his life...

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 12:10:30 GMT

I'm staying in Korea until June 2007 most likely.